I feel so much better this morning, and more refreshed than I did last night.

I've just been so weird lately with so many different things.

So after I wrote my entry last night I ended up going into the lounge, and being sociable and it turned out pretty well. He's got some really cool friends, but sometimes I just feel funky and I guess last night was one of them.

We ended up drinking and watching DVD's into the wee hours. I loved one of them. It's called "The Virgin suicides" by Sofia Coppola, and it was actually her directorial debut. I'd never seen it before, but heard so much about it. I really loved the story, and thought it was an interesting topic to tackle for a first movie.

I dunno whether it's a true story or not, but really interesting done. For some reason the voice over reminded me of The Wonder Years, and remember how there was a voice over in that, but it also inspired me to write.

I think tonight I am going to spend it writing my novel, or working on turning one of my novels into a script or rewriting it as a novel. I do want to do both, but not sure how it will go. Anyway we will see what happens tonight.

Apparently my best friend's show got picked up Friday night by Channel 10, which is very cool. Not so cool that it was his sister, who I don't even know that told me. That kind of pissed me off actually, because I would like to hear it from him rather than anyone else. It hurts more than anything.

I dunno. Things have been so weird for us, since he started dating his new girlfriend. He was in love with a friend of mine that died, and as soon as she died he started dating someone else and that just doesn't sit that well with me. I don't think it ever will actually.

But it's just not that. I feel like this year we are so distant from each other, and the only reason he sms me last night was to gloat that Sydney won. S tore shreds into him for that because he had my phone near him and just found it childish and told him to grow up. Fair enough, since I was pretty much feeling the same.

I dunno. I just feel like our relationship is slowly breaking up and I am the only one who realises it. I keep saying to him that we are now so different, and so distant from each other and he keeps saying he thinks we are closer than ever. Now he used to call me every night, whereas now a days we don't talk for days. That kind of hurts, but admittingly it was something that I wanted to change.

I dunno. I just feel lonely without him in my life. We've been best friends for 4 years, and I always thought that we would always be best friends, but it's like now he has a relationship he doesn't need me. Actually he does this all the time with relationships. So nothing is new there.

Ack I'm probably complaining too much. I just miss my best friend. We're both so busy, live in different cities so getting the chance to see each other will be difficult. I think I will see him maybe once during the three weeks I will be off, whereas we saw each other almost every week.

Hmmm and we're supposed to be writing a television show together. I'd like to see how that's going to happen if we don't ever see each other.

I'm nervous about writing a TV show, since I've never really script wrote before, but I want to start, and know I am good with dialogue from being told I am good with dialogue, so that helps.

Ack never mind, new topic.

I've started drinking a lot more water. You're supposed to drink 8 glasses of water minimum a day, and I definitely don't do that so my goal is to drink about 8 glasses of water a day, and to eat more fruit. Which basically means I have told myself that I am going to eat an apple a day, and try and cut down my caffeine, and the junk I eat. I've noticed lately that I'm just looking blah.

I also need to start getting back to the gym, and as soon as my monthly comes and goes I will do so. I don't feel like it right now because I know it will be a matter of a couple of days before my period arrives.

Explains why I am so damn emotional, blotchy and feeling decidingly unattractive.

So here's to a new and healthier me. I'd like to see how long this lasts.