It's been a weird couple of days. Came back to Melbourne Thursday, caught up with my best friend D on Friday. You know what though, things just aren't the same between us.

I don't know when it happened but we have changed, or at least something has changed between us. We're not the same anymore. Maybe we have both grown up and grown up but I dunno. It saddens me to say the least, but at the same time I have resolved myself to the fact we are different people, and at different stages of our lives. I guess that is the problem.

Then of course there is the issue that S and D will always hate each other, and I can't give S up. I love him too damn much, and if I have to choose then I know deep in my heart who I will choose. Maybe I will regret it, and I'm hoping that it doesn't come to that but if it does it does.

I'm going home either tonight with S and 'the boys' or with my folks tomorrow. I haven't made up my mind about it. It all depends on the mood S is in, and whether I feel like dealing with it. All I know is that I'm going to need to rug up cause god damn it's going to be cold.

I guess that's all I have to say right now and I will fill in more tomorrow.

ciao peoples