S woke me up this morning with this butterfly like kisses on my neck, and his hand rubbing my belly. A nice way to wake up. Kisses, and warm, strong arms around me.

It was an early wake up though of 8am. I would have liked to have slept in a little more, but trust me waking up that early not only put a smile on my face but it was worth it. The smile didn't leave my face all day.

I actually spent a bit of this morning in bed, and not for what people might be thinking either hahaha!!! I read a couple of books, and just relaxed. It was such a cold, and wet day and tomorrow doesn't look any different either. Yuck!

I probably should have spent some time doing my readings today but I prepared to meet Sarah, and then interviewed her for PR.

It went pretty well actually, and she didn't realise that S was my partner. He dropped in, and sat down at the table and she asked if we knew each other. Ha! Yeah you could say that.

Very cute.

Actually it's funny because Gemma had not idea that S and I were together either, and she was surprised. I'd forgotten that she was in my Journalism class last year. Funny!

I'm kind of excited cause Monika asked me if I want to interview Megadeth tomorrow morning, and I said yes. Very cool. I didn't realise they were back together again, and will have to do some research on it. But very excited, and again very cool.

Right now I'm listening to 3 doors down-The better life. I forgot how much I really love this CD. It's a great one.

I've got so much music I need to relisten to, and I'm beginning to spend more time listening to music more and more again.

S made me about 10 cd's, and we listened to one on Saturday night. It was an album filled with love songs, and he wrote down the reasons for why he put them on the album. It made me feel so raw, and cry.

I know I am emotional right now, and all but I had already been crying that day from the fight that we had.

I don't know if I mentioned the fight but he threw a vase filled with roses against the wall near me, and I threw something at him. I think a coffee cup.

We both said some pretty harsh stuff, and he told me that no matter what he did I was never satisfied and he was at the stage where he was ready to give up. Then went on to tell me I was looking for a hero like man, and I was never going to get the white knight in shining armour.

I burst into tears, and that kind of ended the argument, but I cried a lot over different things, and things that have just been bottled up.

The thing is I knew I was being a bitch Saturday, and kept pushing knowing that he was going to erupt. I didn't want to, but my emotions are so haywire right now and I don't know whether I am coming or going, up or down. It's an emotional rollercoaster ride, and very weird.

I'm not good to dealing with all these emotions, and I'm not sure I know how but we did work things out, and I did get a lot out of my system where Uni, working, career choices and us were concerned. I needed to cry I think, and he held me and listened, which was what I needed.

But yes the album he made me feel even more raw. It just touched me so deeply. But that could be the hormones. Lately things have begun to affect me more, and touch me deeper. I even cried when he made love to me this morning. It touched me so deeply. It's ridiculous.

It's Father's day this weekend, so I had better send my dad a father's day card for Sunday since I won't be going home to Melbourne.

I'm going to be home alone, since Shan decided to move out. Apparently he prefers to live with someone else, but that is cool. It means we have the house to ourselves. I love that idea.

I guess that's it for now. I want to try and get some readings done, and finish listening to this album. I got sidetracked by Home and Away. I can't believe I keep getting suckered into that shitty show.

J