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Eating: strawberries
Drinking: coffee
Wearing: GFC t-shirt
Listening to: John Mayer: Come back to bed
Chatting with: Nobody
Thinking: I really should get dressed
Wanting: S
Wishing: life was simple
hell is living without you
I had dinner with S last night. It was all very weird. All very strange. I don't think we knew quite how to act around each other. He even asked me if he could kiss me. Gee that's a first considering on our first 'date' he literally went in for the kill. But it was nice to be asked, and for those who are interested I told him he could.
Right now we're trying to work out where we stand with each other. We love each other but there is someone standing in between us, someone I also love. I'm not even trying right now to comprehend which one is the one for me. I'm just trying to get on with life, and seeing what happens.
I did work out that S and I just can't shut off our emotions, or pretend we're just friends. And I'm cool with that too.
I'm so sore though! I decided yesterday at the gym to start a running regime on the treadmill, and not only was I deadtired by the end of it I was sore. But it was a good exercise, and I'm going to start putting that part of my schedule. I'm not ever going back on the hell that they call the stairmaster though, and want to ask them about teaching me how to use the weights. I'm even tempted to start using the rowing maching a little more. I always get nervous using new things, and then I find I really like them. I might use it tomorrow. Just not push myself.
D and I spoke for 8 hours last night. A record by all means. We started talking at about 7pm and then finished at 3am. Damn we talked a lot. And about everything too. He told me that another of his friends likes me. That the guy, who is another footballer and shall remain nameless, thought I was too good for S. But then this guy hates S with a passion too. D wants me to meet him, and I kind of told him 1. I don't find the guy remotely attractive 2. I'm still pissed with something he did playing against S, and 3. I have enough complications in my life.
I did however say that it'd be nice to have him as a friend, and that was all I planned on offering. He said fine, and said next time we hang out he'll invite BF. So blah.
I don't know what it is with D trying to work things out for me and his friends. He still thinks J and I should be together, but treats me like I am a guinea pig for his experiences. Lovely. I wish he would stop it.
Damn I'm sore.
It was an easy day though and I love my Lit classes. My lecturer is awesome although Laura asked me if she thought he was gay. I told her I actually hadn't thought about it, although I know for a fact he ain't. But I wasn't telling her that.
Only one class tomorrow and then my week is over. I have to write the feature on Friday since I am out Saturday and lets face it will be hung over Sunday.
Hmm dinnertime.
Ciao peoples